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8th March 2005

1:34pm: BBoy Vids - Video Editing
Been trying my hand @ video editing for our bboy crew. We're trying to do some promotion (dislocating my elbow put a kink in the plan) so check out the rough draft here:


More to come on other crew members, and crew trailer.
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1:23pm: The quarter bar
So I've been working @ the quarter for the last 6 months or so. It's a nice little hang out. Some dallasites should come say what's up to me there:

Monday: Happy Hour all night!

Tuesday: $2 Drafts and $2 Frozens

Wednesday: 1/2 price appetizers during Happy Hour

Saturday: 1/2 price Burgers along with $2 Drafts from noon to 7pm.

3301 McKinney Ave. McKinney & Hall St. Uptown, next door to Breadwinners cafe.
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6th January 2005

11:54pm: As if it weren't shitty enough right now
The super-hypocrita-christian manager in the back conspired against me, and got me fired today.
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3rd January 2005

Dislocated my elbow... sucks. Hurts.

Got some new pics of Jasmine:

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3rd December 2004

4:33pm: Life Extension Article
Living to be 1000? I love this stuff.

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1st December 2004

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You Are From Saturn

You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams.
You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones).
You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible.
Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun!
Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.

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19th November 2004

4:05pm: Hummer
Gotta get me a hummer...

Current Mood: horny
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15th November 2004

Sun Sign

Rising Sign

You are 73% Capricorn

Not my sign

You are 93% Taurus

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9th November 2004

9:44am: Chemtrails?
I don't know about the whole chemtrail thing, and I don't know what these are, but I'm sure they are too low to be regular jet contrails. They also stayed in the sky for about an hour, before disappating into what looked like a think cloud layer. I took these from my house on 10-19-2004.

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If anyone has any factual evidence/explaination on what this is about, I'd be very interested to know.
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8th November 2004

11:34am: Interesting Comparison.

No comments. No implications.
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5th November 2004

2:39pm: The Mythology of Wealth by conceptualguerilla.com

Along with ideas about politics, economic theory, political strategy and other related stuff, you will find at this site a sprinkling of something few people associate with political organizing. I refer to a healthy dose of cultural anthropology. Indeed, one message of this site is that whatever you understand about taxes, trade policy, wages and general social conditions, you can’t win the political struggle without also understanding things like culture, symbolism and myth.

Many citizens of western industrial democracies like to believe that they have transcended their “superstitious” pre-scientific past. In fact, a central tenet of our industrial culture is faith in its “rationalism”. Much of the political debate centers around “rational” social and economic policy. In fact, progressives frequently fail to take into account “cultural” forces that frequently work against rational policies. Progressives regularly bemoan the “ignorance” that cheap-labor conservatives are so good at exploiting to prevent seemingly obvious improvements in society.

In fact, the cheap-labor conservatives have counter-attacked with their own “rational” theory to justify their hierarchical world-view. Some call it “Social Darwinism”, though more politically savvy cheap-labor conservatives avoid that term. The purpose of this “rational theory” is to establish that the existing social order is the “natural order”. Elites enjoy wealth, privilege and status because of their inherent superiority. The place where this natural hierarchy is established, is that mythical place known as the “market”.

Justifications for elites and social hierarchy goes all the way back to the pharaohs. For 6000 years, society has organized itself into social classes. The people who do the work are always in the lower classes. The harder and nastier the work, the lower down in the social order you sink. The people who don’t do this work must justify their position. They do it by establishing their “worthiness”, and a variety of cultural devices have been concocted over the millennia to accomplish this. The pharaohs, you may recall, weren’t people at all. They were gods. Roman emperors likewise had themselves deified, and before that Roman Senators justified their position as “patricians”. Basically, “my great great granddaddy was a big shot, therefore I should be too.”

The middle ages gave us the notion of the “great chain of being”. Outside the earthly realm – in the realm of myth , that is – there is Jesus and the “heavenly host”. Just below the angels and saints is the king, followed by his entourage of muscle men otherwise known as the “nobility”. Since kings were chosen “by the grace of God”, they didn’t answer to ordinary mortals. At least they didn’t before Runnymeade, when the English nobility straightened out King John about where his power really came from.

This is the historical background for those famous words of Thomas Jefferson. “Governments are instituted among men, and derive their just powers from the consent of the governed”. Everyone has heard those words. School children recite them. Few people appreciate that those words repudiated 6000 years of “mumbo jumbo” to justify the existence of social classes and fixed elites. Elites don’t get their power from the gods, or from Jesus or from any other mythological source. Elites get their power from the people they rule. Power flows from the bottom up, not from the top down.

Old habits die hard. In fact, we still have a “leisure class”. As capitalism has grown so has the wealth and privilege of our leisure class. The old mythologies – gods, the “great chain of being” etc. – are no longer available to justify the existence and perpetuation of our leisure class, something our elites are definitely interested in perpetuating. What was needed was a new “rational” worldview that justified the existence of privileged elites.

That rationalization came in the form of a brand new science known as economics, which included a brand new mythology.

According to the new mythology, human beings are economic competitors. The “marketplace” is the new “Valhalla”, where “economic man” frolics. The “market” we are told, contains its own “rationality”. It rewards the efficient. It rewards that list of virtues George Will cites, like “thrift”, “delayed gratification” and of course, “hard work”. Free competition in the market place “rationally” selects the more “worthy” competitor. Thus, the wealthy are the superior competitors who have “earned” their elite status. If you haven’t succeeded it can only be because of your “inferiority”.

Before debunking this whole ideology, a few observations are in order. First of all, notice that the hierarchical social order is back. It has a new veneer of “rationality”, but it is the same old ugly reality. Elites are “better” than you. The non-elites who do the work have “earned” their position, and are proper objects of scorn. Thus, we have a handful of haves, worthy of admiration and respect, and a large class of industrial serfs who own nothing but their bellies. The theory has changed, but the reality is just the same. Not surprisingly, cheap-labor believers in the “rational” hierarchy are hostile to democracy. In fact, they have decided that democratic government is an enemy to “market efficiency”. What Thomas Jefferson won through debunking the old forms of social hierarchy, today’s cheap-labor conservative is busy taking back through his new “rational” form of the same old shit.

And it is the same old shit. First of all, “hard work” is only a small piece of the equation. In reality, success in the market is about market position. It isn’t about what you do, but about what you control. The hardest work is actually done by people whose market position makes their daily wage minimal. The person who profits most from their labor is the person who owns the factory they work in. While there are certainly examples of factory owners who started with nothing and rose to be “captains of industry”, for the most part our captains of industry started out a lot further ahead of the game.

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12:35pm: Who am I?
Perhaps the self is not set, or static, but always engaged in a dance, in change with the variables of the surrounding environment.

This is not to prove or disprove that the self exists, but to inquire into its nature.

Is the self the driving force behind, at the helm of our existance, or is it a generated result of millions of chemical and electrical reactions happening simultaneously?

In our carbon based biological system, the mind, and life, are considered to be emergent properties, where the sum of the parts yeilds an extraordinary result. Although this has not been explained, and human life has not yet been created in a lab from scratch (which would be exteremely complex, and expensive), the mind, and the ideas that acompany it, are undeniably a function of the physically/objectively existant system that they stem from. If you destroy that system, you destroy what goes along with it.

Many people believe that the self is separate from the mind, and that it is the sole force at the cause of one's existance, experience, and actions.

How is possible to know?
The concept has been regected for centuries by buddhists, as only a perception, and not relaity. This gives one great freedom when dealing with the self, and all that acompanies it. Simply observing the a concept of self being agreed on, referred to or even put into practical use, does not make it independant of human thought.

It all comes back to inquiry into your self. How much time do we really put into this inquiry? Not much, for most; we simply accept the concept of self. If we didn't, we may not even operate and navigate as sentient beings. Consider animals who have no sense of self...
All in all, all evidence, research, and history point to the self as being a concept that arises out of the human reasoning, or one's perception. Without the mind, anything dependant on that mind, such as thought, belief, or concept, dies. It may be carried on similarly by others, however, the same is true for these individuals.

I would go so far as to assume that most people do not naturally desire to accept the unpleasant idea of their own (idea of) self dying when the brain ceases to function, so they invent unfounded or ineptly founded concepts which give them the hope of not having to cease to exist as who they know their self to be. When the self is considered as conceptual, and a product of perception, freedom in accepting death may come with it.
Current Mood: complacent
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28th October 2004

10:50pm: A convesation about "Evidence for the Existance of God"

After watching this thread develop on a forum for several weeks, I posed a question,

"What's the value of this conversation?" I received a reply:

Gary "Simon Cruickshank Rock" Wrote:
"Entertainment value. Maybe heuristic value to some of the musings people post. No monetary value that I can tell."

To which I said:
"I doubt heuristics can solve this one. If the purpose is to be entertained...
In my experience, entertaining such a question is an exercise in the interminably indeterminable, not to mention the futile.
The idea of God is unfathomable in its fundamental conception, before even reason or argument can take place. Without understanding, aiming to explain the nature of a thing is absurd. It's an insane cycle or subjective ideas, opinions, concepts, and theories which people begin to accept as truth, and then become upset with each-other for the abundant contradictions to follow.
The argument itself certainly can't provide any practical benefit to our lives.

Entertainment value can be fun... haha, laugh at all the idiots. Not really my thing, but... you know, it just all seems a bit frivolous (and potentially destructive) to me."

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27th October 2004

9:52am: Article on Western Buddhism (Source Unknown)

There is an evolving form of Buddhism that has been variously described as either "American" or "Western" Buddhism. It's also sometimes referred to as "scientific" Buddhism.

It's been here for at least 50 years and is growing in popularity and presence since the re-introduction of Buddhism to the west in the 1950s. At first it grew in America through the Beats, but soon spread to Canada, Europe, Australia and other 'western' nations. People like Alan Watts and D. T. Suzuki helped that introduction, and writers like Jack kerouac and Alan Ginsberg helped its spread through the counterculture. The arrival of various Buddhist teachers in the 1960s helped stir interest as schools were founded.

However, traditionalists - like in any belief - are fighting against the change. Newness threatens and frightens some people, even though the changes are actually true to the heart of Buddhist philosophy (particularly relevant to the statements made in the Kalama Sutra). Traditionalists often resist change because it underpins their authority.

Basically, Western Buddhism is a return to the core practice, a pragmatic approach shorn of the accumulated gods, demons, superstitions, mythologies and animistic practices like oracles and fortune telling. Even reincarnation is challenged. It strips the debris from the Buddha's words and presents a shining, unadorned way to approach Buddhism.

In some ways, it is very much like Zen, in that it has more focus on daily practice than the trappings of formalized ritual.

Stephen Batchelor, a long-time Buddhist teacher, brought a lot of these issues to the fore in a small book called "Buddhism Without Beliefs." he also writes about it online in an article on "Agnostic Buddhism." There are a few sites dedicated to this approach that you should read.

Western Buddhism discards the theological hierarchy; it really doesn't need the formal structure to control and direct it. It returns to the Buddha's belief that everyone can become enlightened by simple practice and pursing a basic code of ethics. There is no need for the superstitions and claptrap that have been collected over the centuries, usually absorbed through contact with other religions. But a lot of that has become so engrained in traditional practice that it's difficult to see the teachings through the veil of mythology, spirits, dieties and demons.

Western Buddhism is quietly gathering strength. It is not a negative, but rather a very positive change that shows Buddhism is still a vital, growing and evolving belief that has relevance not only to the West, but to all the world.

This effectively sums up my practice. I was glad to see that many others share the same perception. Though ultimately it's insignificant, it's wonderful to see that these ancient ideas are shedding their mystical and mythological excesses, in exchange for the collective mental/conceptual development that we have gone through over the past centuries.
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26th October 2004

You preferred Kerry's statements 56% of the time
You preferred Bush's statements 44% of the time

Voting purely on the issues you should vote Kerry

Who would you vote for if you voted on the issues?

Find out now!

jacked from blackula
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21st October 2004

11:46am: Vampire
I've been having the vampire dreams again.
It really hit home last time when I looked up "vampire" on webdiva's dreamjournal.org.

It says :: vampire
An idea or fear that is draining your energy, ambition, or resolution. This often relates to sexual or emotional relationships that are felt as too demanding.

But what can I do about it?
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8th October 2004

Eysenck's Test Results
Extraversion (71%) high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Neuroticism (29%) low which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Psychoticism (55%) medium medium which suggests you are moderately self interested, willful, and difficult, while still respecting the well being of others.
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ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.
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Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 56%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||||| 23%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 56%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||| 33%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||| 43%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||||||| 73%
Your Conscious-Surface type is 9w1
Your Unconscious-Overall type is 1w9
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Brain Lateralization Test Results
Right Brain (48%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.
Left Brain (58%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain
Are You Right or Left Brained?
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Global Personality Test Results
Stability (82%) high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..
Orderliness (70%) high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun.
Extraversion (54%) medium which suggests you are moderately talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting.

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30th September 2004

3:37pm: Spitfire
what i am genetically
expressin it phonetically
exponentially accelerate potentially
my potency packs punches through your defenses
my i-quotient surpasses wack ass attacks
sendin them back to disaster, they lyrically lack lustre
you can muster a verse, but best rehearse because I mastered
linguistic limmericks, i'm limber, soft as water, hard as timber
come at me with fire, find me cold as winter, stay together, never splinter
be at one with the splendor, lest it render you an offender and rend you into two...
like a blender
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I see all the different religious traditions as paths for the development of inner peace, which is the true foundation of world peace. These ancient traditions come to us as a gift from our common past. Will we continue to cherish it as a gift and hand it over the the future generations as a legacy of our shared desire for peace?

-His Holiness the Dalai Lama
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15th September 2004

11:04am: Martial Artist
I study all martial arts. Right now I am training 7 Star praying mantis and for Sanshou competition. I'd like to do some grappling again soon as well.

There are benefits in the realms of health & vitality, self discipline/personal drive, self-confidence, mental alertness, and the capacity to defend one's self (or others) from attackers. There are definitely many more, and could be said in more detail.

As far as the advantages and disadvantages of both styles, as they pertain to actual real world combat:

The advantages of the 7 star mantis style (that I can say so far) are: The Sifu/Sigung has been around for a long time, and is very well known an respected, so he definitely knows the art in and out; The art does not discount, and puts into use, brutal techniques like eye gouges, groin kicks, straight knee kicks, etc; Praying mantis makes very good use of trapping, hooking, and grabbing hands, as well as elbows. The hand work can easily be translated into grappling or chin-na techniques; the style uses a variety of strikes and is very versatile.

The disadvantages (that I can see so far) are: The style contains some difficult movements and requires leg stability that most people, even many athletes and martial artists do not possess. It takes lots of time to put the techniques into practical use; Though most kung fu styles use some "Chin-na, " they tend to ignore fighting on the ground. most say that it would be easy to gouge an eye or bite or whatever needed to be done at that point, however, I have yet to see it practiced; Containing so many brutal techniques, the style is difficult to test for practical purposes, in a high speed, high intensity situation, without someone getting severely injured, so most practice must be done slowly, progressing to higher speeds after years of practicing slowly... this leaves student unprepared for what they might face in the world of high speed, aggressive fighting, especially in matters of distance and timing.

The advantages of Sanshou (that I can see so far) are: The competition is fierce, and full force, which allows for one to see how strikes work in real time, and practice/get a feel for fighting rhythms, distance, timings, openings, feints, parries, etc; The allowing of throws, sweeps, etc. causes one not to overextend him/herself like in other striking sports like boxing/kickboxing, which is advantageous in actual combat; My Sanshou sifu bases his style off of JKD, which is very effective for throwing common strikes faster and more efficiently than is practiced in some other styles; The style and training is put to the test quickly, and at max ballistic exertion, therefore is able to be used practically in a short period of time.

The disadvantages of Sanshou (that I can see so far) are: The training is specified for Sanshou competition, which is advantageous for fighting in Sanshou matches, but for real world combat, discounts many techniques like hair pulling, eye gouging, throat strikes/grabbing, clawing, biting, groin strikes, knee/arm breaks, etc; The high intensity and hardness of the style increase the chances for injury.

There are others that I have trained in: wing chun, judo, jiu jitsu, wrestling, that have had their advantages and disadvantages. Wing Chun = Very good for hand techniques, not good for kicks and maneuverability/balance. Judo/Jiu Jitsu, great for throws and learning how to take your opponent off their balance; good for chokes, joint locks/breaks; Not good for striking or defending against strikes. Wrestling, great for takedowns and being comfortable on the ground; not good for strikes or defending against them, or for other more brutal techniques on the ground.

For more information on any of them, you can look them up on google, and form your own opinions for yourself.

As we all progress in our practice and studies, it's important to shape your training for what you intend to accomplish out of it.
Do you want to do traditional forms, wushu, win mma, boxing or kickboxing competitions, be able to do crazy flips and kicks, be able to defend yourself from armed/unarmed attackers or groups of attackers with real intent to harm or kill you, something else? or maybe all of it...?

we should continue to specialize our training to fit our goals as martial artists.

As far as a superior art... to believe in, or argue about what art is superior is a not smart. It's a question with no answer, a wild goose chase, a road that goes nowhere.
Current Mood: contemplative
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10:56am: Fitness Training
My main goal out of training is to be in better shape and to enable myself to better perform in martial arts.
Health, general fitness, and nutrition has been a big part of my life for some time while, and I'd like nothing more than to uplift the level of health and fitness in the world, by motivating people in my life to be more health and get themselves in good physical condition... even if it's on a small level like just being aware of nutrition, or going for walks in the mornings. I feel like this is a much better way to prevent and combat disease and suffering than through medicine and the US allopathic medical system. It's good to see more and more people getting involved in this same sort of endeavor, and taking up a similar mindset, being responsible for their own health (and the health of others).
Current Mood: hopeful
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26th August 2004

10:24am: "see dummies is redundant
pimps are politicin
but they can't overcome this incumbent,
profound pundit
you're style's pungent
that means it stinks...
in dealin with adversaries
my tactics for dissin vary
I keep em runnin like dysentery disease
I play the dissident in distance events
and invent verbs to vent anger
cuz I'm not content with your content tint
on your window can't hide ya from the wrath while I drive math
see I'm the valedictorian MC
historian, slayin the socalled sick
like Kevorkian
niggaz menacin and grimacin while i be writin like I'm Emmerson or Lord Alfred Tennyson, diminishin men
finishin guniess and then
screamin on em like I'm Kennison, in a sense
I be pimpin em, not pamperin
I leave em limpin and whimperin
I'm vampin em, I'm crampin they style and
that's why they not smilin"
Current Mood: calm
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15th August 2004

12:07pm: Fragile Battle
the universe is a wasteland
I fill in the void with my creations.
their warmth pushes against the frigid edges
of nothingness
already, always

come back down, release from your chamber
your prison, unguarded
your self
so we can see what you are

I am the figure, a fighter
of liberation, overwhelmed
these tendrils grow thick in the jungle of encumbrance
my weapons grow sharper
this is not my weakness

Isolation defies the extent of my potential
The definition of which can ever be rewritten
My approach should not be so anomalous

Unless I coalesce with complementary forces
The wasteland will endure my endeavors

But persevere with heart,
Being forlorn cannot be the fate of those who are exacting in their aspirations to transcend disintegration</dv>
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9th August 2004

You're Immanuel Kant. You believe in the power of

Which Philosopher are You?
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